Listening to my voice.

It has been awhile since writing here, I just would rather get my rest since I have so much happening in my daily routine. I have decided to move back down south. I like the weather, and I have the opportunity to live in a city that spoke about living in prior to having my daughter, but didn't know how it was going to happen. I feel bad because I have a stable job here, but I have NO social life. So basically, every other weekend my daughter and I are leaving town, for entertainment or to be with family, I get tired of driving two plus hours for a decent mall, or a decent zoo, my quality of life is on zero. I would like to get married some day, and have my daughter a stable present father figure in her life. I would like to be an active member of the community. I want a church home I just want to settle in a place, where I want to stay. I feel like I have been in a low point for the past 2.5 years, and now its time to get back to my life.  And honestly emotionally I have been. I have decided to finally let go of the past, the anger, the hurt, and move on with my daughter. It has been hard, but it is more harmful for me and my daughter for me to dwell in it, and most of the time other than me  only God knows my true feelings, I do a great job of masking them when I feel overwhelm, prayer  reading my Bible, and listening to my Bible (in the car) helps. Some days I feel bad and selfish for planning to leave, because my patients are so grateful, however I feel that I want some fulfillment after work. I want my daughter to be in a place where she can grow intellectually, spiritually, and physically, where she has opportunities to at least play outside without the chance of being hit by a car. She is so smart, and beautiful, it would be ideal to keep her isolated, however I feel that I would rather be there for when she falls to help her up, instead of pretending that she will never fall. So we are leaving, I  pray everyday that (at least in my heart) that I am making the right decision for the both of us. I want to earn more money, and to do that I have to go to private practice, I did not want the responsibility of ownership, but it seems that I done with working for other people, earning them money. I pray that God will lead me to the right practice, with a experienced motivated positive staff,  modern functioning equipment, and PAYING patients ;). I place where we have so much fun I forget it's work. I place that would allow time for a family life, or time to get Mumu from daycare on time. I have a feeling my future husband is there, my practice, our family life is there, so once again we will packing up this house and moving. 2015 is going to be wonderful  and full of joy for me and MuMu.