Relief

So after three years five months and two weeks, I decided to break the cycle of celibacy.
What a nice man, strong man ....I am satisfied, and a little sore. First, let me say that his picture did him no justice. He looked better in person. And at this very moment, I can not remember exactly what he looked  like, but I sure can remember what he felt like....it seems that I like the same guy over and over...5'10" -6'2" Dark, muscular, athletic, divorced, single father....and honestly, this guy was just too right for me. I prayed that God would sent me someone to help me with this sexual hunger. And even though I know fornication is a sin, I go to Him in all things,  my flaws, my fleshly desires. And this man, did everything, said everything, in a way that was so familiar, even his mannerisms. It was like I knew him, and honestly I hope that I didn't freak him out, with the way I was looking at him. Of course there was a lustful stare, but it was blowing my mind. It was as if someone I knew, went to him, and coached him on how to handle me. It was so good, I said sooooo good. He put that work in, I slept well for two nights in a row, and on the third night I wanted more. Of course he didn't believe that it had been that long, but men never believe me, when I tell them the truth. " No I am not cheating  on you" : Truth "Yes, I waited for you while you were deployed for  7 months" : -Truth  " I haven't had sex with another person for all most 3.5 years" :- Truth... Maybe they find it so hard to believe because they could never do it. But, I did all three. Each time, each man didn't believe me, but oh well.  I like sex, probably a little more than the average person, but depending upon the circumstances, I can shut it all the way down. However once my girl is opened up, then  my desire for it is strong, and frequent, and in all honesty I prefer to keep it to one man. Since he did so well, I intend on showing him my full gratitude at our next session, I am going to do everything I always wanted to do, but held back, because I didn't want to be judged. I intend on going that extra mile as long as he behaves, I need to know and accept  all of me, even the naughty parts.