God Knows and now you do too

It takes all of my might to hold my tongue sometimes. I think about my current situation, and the only thing I am certain of is that I will never be in a position of where I have no where to go, again. I will depend on God alone, and what I can do to make sure that my daughter and I are provided for. I will have a plan b, c, d, e, and f. I didn't remember why, I stayed away so long before, but I remember now. And now that I have my child, I am certain that she will have short visits where I will be present. I remember why my personal life, was MY personal life, and once I leave I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I will not ever come here to live again. Some families are better if you spend time with them on the phone, and that's it. I applied for this job down south, and I pray to God that it is in his will for me to get it, because my money is very low, and I feel like I'm ready to start a new life with me and my daughter. I thought I wanted to stay close to my family for support, but my money is getting low and I want to put some distance between us. Also it has been my experience that God sends people to you when you need them. Plus it is those closest to you that can hurt you the most and I have had my share of hurt this year, and I am tired of my family throwing it up in my face. I tell anyone that you have to have tough skin to be around my family. And I am trying not to pick up  those habits. So I just keep my mouth shut and try to ignore as much as I can, and when I can't anymore I leave the room.  All that aside, I would like to start some traditions of my own. Instead of staying in a hot kitchen cooking for ungrateful people, I would like to take a trip with my daughter somewhere warm, annually and have fun and take pictures, and laugh. She is my family now, so I just want to make sure she has a good life, and I'm ready to start.