Nothing Better....

Lately I have been so pre-occupied with trying to find a job, and finally getting it together that I have really been too tired to write anything. I would think about it but by the time thought would come into my mind I would be asleep. I have this yearning to move to a coast, any coast as long as I am close to the water. The thing I have to do first is stack my money, I have temp job coming up so I plan to make the most of it, and in the mean time still search for permanent employment. I finally found a church that I like enough to attend on a regular basis. By, 2014 I will be on my way to establishing a home for me and baby girl. I am learning to let people and their crap go. I still get upset with my sperm donor at the beginning of every month, but I am truly starting to believe that the anger I am able to suppress surfaces with the cycling of my hormones, and I start my pill soon, so I will see how that goes. I know time and prayer will help also, because I can't ignore it, my daughter is looking more and more like him everyday. I don't feel I properly expressed my anger, I should have acted out, at least a little, nasty e-mails didn't get it. Once I start working, and working out consistently, and finally open myself up to start dating again, I will forgive and forget. Honestly, I just want to move somewhere and start over. New place, new job, new people, just me and my daughter and happy days. Nothing would better than that right now...