Mommy blues

I was so excited last night as my little princess slept in her room all by herself all night. I slept well, but I think that she slept better. I arose a couple of times just to check on her, and she was in a deep sleep. I missed her body heat in the bed with me, but I didn't miss being kicking it the ribs, or side or waking up to pull her back from the edge of the bed. I realized that I haven't been in my bed (my king size bed) alone for two years.  It is cold and I felt lonely. I talked to a friend of mine and she is scheduled to get married around the first week of October (I am looking forward to going to Miami, more than the wedding...lol), she jokes that I will probably be married before her, and I laugh because I know where I am with men (trust on E) and looking at the prospects in the area, I have a greater chance at winning both the Mega Millions and Power Ball jackpots in the same week, than getting married before she, does. But, it is lonely at night, and even though I am completely emotionally unavailable,my flesh is not dead. I promised God, that the next man to be in our (because we are a package) lives He would have to choose, because obviously I have done a poor job choosing on my own thus far. So I will have to endure a cold bed until He says otherwise, but I can be enthusiastic about what God has in store for us.