Night Thoughts...

After awhile people fall away, if they can't use you, or have your life to chat about instead of theirs, given time they just fade away, even in the age of social media, if you have a true friend then occasionally they may call or visit with nothing on but a kind word, and maybe a joke or two then back to their lives. The older I get, the more I don't mind being with myself  (and Holy Spirit). My daughter makes me laugh a lot. I am sure she doesn't understand what she is doing, but she laughs because I laugh, and I spend a majority of time with her, so to me its important that she laughs as much as possible, life has enough sorrows ahead. She is my number one fan. I was thinking that I wanted another child, but I am fine with just her. I am blessed to have her, I wasn't sure if I could have any children at all. After looking at daycare cost, and all that is to come, and I really can't truly depend on people, my parents are older, and they will baby sit, but they get tired too, one is enough for me. I realize that she may be spoiled ,but I don't need to have another child to assure that she will not be selfish, I just have to teach her by example which will be difficult as I like things my way myself, but I will try my best.