Priorities

When I lived in my old house, I had this goal board in my room. It had pictures of goals which I hoped to accomplish without a specific timeline. I cut out pictures of houses, wrote on a bill of money the amount of money I hoped to obtain, I drew a stick figures of my husband and child with a suitcase, symbolizing a man without baggage, and I drew an airplane symbolizing my desire to travel. In the corner I had three top properties, the first was and still is spiritual growth, the second, I believe was educational, and the third I can not remember, lol.  Still working on the house, the money, the travel, I should have drawn an x thru the suitcase, because I attract men with full luggage sets of baggage ....lol. I do have my beautiful baby girl, who no matter how I feel makes me smile every day, and I have discovered I have so much patience now, and I understand so much more than I did before.  If it is God's will, I will have a husband, but at the moment my heart is hardened towards men. I attempted the on line dating, but it's not what I want to devote any of my time to right  now, I'm still angry, I'm disguised with people in general. That doesn't mean I have a bad attitude. I just have no faith or trust in them at all. I pray about that all of the time, in time I will again. I prayed that God help me to grow spiritually, and in order to grow sometimes things and people have to be taken away. It's difficult, but not impossible, I used to read my bible all of the time, and should read it more, but I discovered that it stuck. I know it, I understand it more. Now, if I could just learn to forgive, but I figure as long as I don't stop trying one day I will learn how to forgive people quickly.