Human

I don't know why people think that just because you are a Christian that you are not human too. Yes, I know that we are to follow his example, and try to be Christ-like. Yes, I know that when you are born again, that you are to "put off your old ways" and allow yourself to be filled and led by the Holy Spirit. I read my bible, not as often as I used too, but I have read it so much, that I have in me, so I remember it, well parts of it. That still doesn't mean that I am perfect, for if I was there would be no need for me to be here. I still fall short. I still ask for forgiveness. I have a sharp tongue, and I tend to be unforgiving, I love sex, and I am not married. There are times I wish I would have married my first, because he wanted to just for sex, so it would be right in the eyes of the Lord, but at the time I couldn't see myself getting married to someone just because the sex was good, plus we were really young and in college, and he didn't have a plan, I didn't want to be married to someone that had no idea of he was going to do with his life, especially since I had a plan for mine, plus cheating on me with my best friend crushed me, I have never trusted anyone the way I trusted him. Anyways,. I felt that we were not equally yoked spiritually. That's important to me, good sex is great, but after those minutes are up, you have live with this person, and if they don't believe in what you do, that is a recipe for a living hell. Plus if a man, can't humble himself before God, that means that he will have problems leading, and have a God complex himself, and I like confident, sometimes boarder line cocky men, but there's comes a time when you have to fall back and understand that there's Someone greater than you, that you must yield to for your own good, and for the good of your family. That doesn't mean that you will be perfect, but you have to draw the line, yes I understand that sin is sin. But, because you are guilty of one sin, that doesn't make it okay to commit a multitude of sin. For example, when I discovered I was pregnant, my child's father couldn't understand, how I thought it was okay to have sex before marriage, and a baby out of wedlock, and not okay to get an abortion. Actually none if it is okay, however, he and I had sex numerous times prior to me getting pregnant, and we discussed the what ifs, and I told him on more than a couple of times that I didn't believe in abortions, because pregnancies are preventable. And since, I had be taken pre-cautions, it wasn't an issue, until I got pregnant. And I am doing what I said I was going to , taking care of my child. The way I see it is, God has given me a child. Not the way I wanted, but I wasn't being obedient, so I deal with the consequences of my actions. It's not easy, but I couldn't have lived with myself, if I had gotten one, some women can, I can't kill my babies, especially since I didn't think I could have any. But, I don't judge, I am human, I am not going to get it right all of the time. That's why God is there, that's why Jesus died,  because God knew that about me and everyone. That doesn't mean that there are not expectations, and that I am not suppose to try, or that I should give up, or that I shouldn't repent, when I am truly remorseful, or that I shouldn't ask for mercy or guidance from the Holy Spirit. It does mean that I must understand that others are human too, that I should forgive (working on that), and just love one another. If people just love one another, show some compassion, say a sincere encouraging, kind word, and be honest with one another this world would be better off. NO Human being on this earth is perfect....no not even me.