Unlimited Love

Sometimes I think it is funny that people try to hide anything anymore. Yeah, I know that is a little hypocritical coming from someone that writes an on-line journal without revealing any specific personal information, but I know that if anyone really wants to know how I am, a simple search is not hard to do. Anyone, anywhere in the world can be found, and I know for a fact that anything done in the dark will come be seen in the light, sooner or later, so why hide or lie? Nobody's perfect, and once you truly know that, it makes life easier. And it is easier to have mercy on one another. I was in the car at around noon, and everyday there is pastor that preaches on this radio station, and it just so happens that I am always in the car running an errand when he is on, and I can't seem to remember his name, but who he is irrelevant, he is a vessel. Anyway he explained that "Grace is when God gives us what we don't deserve, and mercy is when God doesn't give us what we do deserve." I remember I was having a conversation with a friend and he said that he shows people mercy because later on he will need someone to show him mercy, and I  remember telling him that he shouldn't be merciful with a selfish motive. I didn't quite know the scripture, to refer to at the time, but I later went to my Bible and wah-la (I know now I was being led), there it was " be merciful, because your Father in heaven is merciful" so basically show the God in you, by behaving like Him. It is true you reap what you sow, and you want to sow good seeds, but do it because you love doing it, because you want to please God (Who, by the way is the only One, you should be trying to please anyway),  because you love Him. And I  know when I truly love someone, if I have it, they have it, I think about them in a way in which I wouldn't want to do anything to cause (real) harm or embarrassment,  and I want to please that person, not because I'm in fear that not pleasing them will cause them to go away, but because it makes me happy to see them happy. I know people who are insecure, and  who don't understand will take advantage of that (been there, done that, got the t-shirt and the baby to match), but  the good thing is, that once you understand that there is no wrong in loving someone, it doesn't matter what they have done, are doing or will do. You just gave what was given to you (not necessarily from them, but throughout your life). Even though they may have taken the love you gave, once you know you have an unlimited source you will always have plenty to give, you can always recharge, and give it to someone who understands what it is , can appreciate it , and  who can reciprocate it. I have had a couple of major heartbreaks, the first time I was angry, and just gave that hurt to whoever was in my path, this time I was angry but instead of hurting others, I prayed, and cried, and prayed and cried, and moved, and prayed and cried, still praying, but whatever brings me closer to God, because really that's all that matters.